I feel so incredibly stupid. I don’t understand how I’m ever going to be able to finish this, and I’m almost 100% certain I have fooled somebody real good, since they’re actually paying me for doing such a shitty job, where I don’t understand anything of what I’m doing…
Finishing a phd is really like being on the worst emotional rollercoaster - where one day you feel like you’re actually accomplishing something just because you finally managed to make a figure, and the next day you realise that even if you have that figure, how will this ever turn into an article that a real scientific paper will publish.
It’s not particularly fun.
PS: Tomorrow Anders is going away for a week, and even though I do enjoy my own company, I know I’ll miss him so much. Especially now - he really is my biggest supporter, and I hate that he won’t be here.